Life today

Hello world.

I am writing to tell the world the situation.

I have been in NC for two months now and am basically unhireable? Maybe it’s my resume. I am getting very frustrated about not having enough experience or no knowledge of the new technology or being seriously “overqualified” for the positions that I am able to do. The federal jobs I have applied for are taking forever and even the job placement agency I applied for “does not have openings.” Really? Maybe I should just stay home with my daughter until she goes to school and work at my online job and start my affiliate marketing business. Maybe it’s a sign.

I am really getting annoyed with having one of my husband’s friends staying with us. He helped us move across the country from CO but does that mean I have to tolerate disrespect and resentment? He claims that his issues are because he is schizophrenic. But he can give me advice on my child, our finances, my marriage, etc. He is SUCH an expert that he lives off his mother and other friends, has no credit, lives of the government he despises, no property, and no other significant relationship besides with his family. And yet he second guesses all my decisions and my husband listens to him instead of me. And even though this “Grown Man” can take care of himself and pass judgment on me- he cannot clean up after himself, help pay rent or utilities for staying with us, clean, etc. He does make dinner sometimes and gives me food while working at home. But isn’t that the least he can do?

Now my husband is planning on having another one of his friends that I do not get along with staying with us. And in the same month of my birthday. So any plans that we have for my birthday will have to include him. I know I probably sound selfish but enough with other people staying with us! I am not a GD hotel! But then I’ll seem petty and my husband will resent me and I will cave in to make him happy. Grrr!!!

I am trying to straighten out our finances. We are about 45k in debt and that includes cars, etc. We do have a rental property that we may start making money with next month after our refinance. I am researching getting out of debt and getting a job that will pay enough to pay for child care and make it worth not working at home. Until then I have the online job and prospects to do more online to stay afloat and start paying things off. My husband- in his infinite wisdom- has an Outback that needs new brakes, rotors, and a timing belt. It is a manual transmission which I HATE and now it needs $1000 worth of work. We have the money now but now he wants to spend it on a different car to buy it. I told him no- because if he buys that car we will have a car sitting in an Apartment Complex not being used and be out more than $1000 to register the other car, pay taxes on it, etc. But he thinks that since it is such a good deal I should go along with it. But the fact of the matter is- we owe more on the car than it is worth and it it would be cheaper to fix it and then when we get that far along- sell it and use that money for something more reliable. I don’t think he understands what I am trying to do. Then when I say something about it not working or fixing it- he thinks he can say- “I told you so.”


About spunkyinred

29 year old Mom with infant looking for a job in the South where the Civil War victory by the North is still being resented. Former SF support soldier looking to find common ground and to further career in something I can be proud of myself for.
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